Busy Being Lonely

I haven't seen my 
friends in weeks now
I think they're 
worried about me 
Won't answer the 
phone anymore
I just throw it
on the floor
And I keep on 
losing sleep
Don't know my days
from my weeks
But I promise 
that I'm happy
Don't you be 
worried about me 

I'm just busy 
being lonely
Cause I like 
it that way
All you people 
disappoint me
So I'm just 
waiting on the day
When I feel like 
I can show my heart
And it not be 
thrown in the dirt
I'm just busy 
being lonely
Don't be worried 
about me

Call me a bitch 
if you want to 
Won't be there to 
hear you say it
Delete my number 
if you choose to
Cause I don't see
myself changing
It's just me, 
myself, and I
I, myself, and 
no one else
Only lies I'll be 
bothered by
Are the ones I 
tell myself 


-meb

Should’ve

I wake up screaming 
and you don't know why
Doesn't feel right to 
keep living this lie
I can see in your eyes
you want so much more
But I'm already halfway 
out the door

You made me laugh and 
your touch made me stay
But I used you to help
cover the pain
When I needed you, you
were always there
So after a while I 
couldn't help but care

But I should've 
kept running
Shouldn't have 
stopped when I 
saw you
I should've 
known better
But I didn't 
know what else 
to do

There were moments when
I thought it was real
Convinced myself you were
quite the steal
It's easy to lie when 
your heart's gone numb
But deep down I knew you
were never the one

I wish I could give back 
your wasted time
Been more true to this 
heart of mine
But a part of me thought
what the hell
I guess I knew only time 
could tell


-meb